Witness The Fitness.

HA! Don’t be fooled by the title, I am in no way fit, but I am getting there.

If you have read my blog before you would have read a ‘few’ posts, mainly in January about me joining the gym or starting an exercise regime/healthy eating which I intended to stick to… Now, I did mange to stick to them for a while (month or so) and then I would go back to being lazy and stuffing my face (which I still enjoy doing, I’m only human…), but this time I’ve managed to stick to it.

In January (what a surprise!) I joined Slimming World and during my time with them I managed to lose about a stone (I went up and down), but sadly I’ve had to give it up due to my financial situation (less money, mo’ problems). I won’t say that I made every meal ‘syn free’, BUT I made quite a few and every meal was tasty, except for one, I decided to ‘go off piste’ and create my own which was a disaster, but we won’t talk about that… Thankfully even though I am no longer attending any of the weigh ins or classes (only stayed for one, the unsocial bitch that I am) I can still get all in the SW info I need on the World Wide Web. One of the best websites/blogs for recipes and also a good laugh is Two Chubby Cubs, I urge you to go and read their blog even if you aren’t following the SW lifestyle, also a good place to get recipes and info on ‘syns’ is on Pinterest and Facebook (there are tons of pages that you can follow).

Along with the SW lifestyle I’ve also been exercising a TON and can actually see the change in my body, which is such a confidence boost(!) and I’ve also got A LOT more energy that I didn’t previously have. I have been using a range of apps to help me keep fit and on track and I have a heap of them on my phone, I like to switch things up as I get bored easily and my favorite apps are: 8fit – pre fixed workouts which you can tailor the exercises to suit your level of fitness, Asana Rebel – this app offers you pre fixed yoga workouts, Bodyweight – this has a range of workouts and exercises, Fitplan – this has prefixed workouts , Gymster Pro – lets you choose the areas you would like to work on whilst utilising the equipment that you have around you, Sworkit – you chose the length of time you want to work out and also the type of workout you want & Track Yoga – does what it says on the tin, yoga sessions.

I love these apps and I love the variety of each one, now I’m not going to sit here and say I have paid or pay for any of these apps with the exception of Gymster Pro, they aren’t cheap and I cannot afford to be shelling out over Β£100 per year to have them and ALL of their workouts, but I find that using the free workouts to be just as effective as having access to all of them. That is not say don’t purchase/subscribe to them, if I could afford it I would as you always get more features and content when you do, but right now I’m perfectly happy with using the free workouts and exercise sessions. We’re lucky enough to have enough rooms in our house that I’ve now dedicated the ‘dressing room’ to my workouts and meditation (which I’m also doing, it’s great for your metal health) and I have ‘some’ home gym equipment, I have a workout/yoga mat, bench press, dumbells, kettlebell, resistance bands and my newly acquired gym ball/balance ball (whatever you want to call it). My intention is to re-floor and convert our attic into a gym/music room (I’ve got a drum kit which still resides at my parents 4 years after I moved out…) , the ‘dressing room’ is a good size, but we have 2 large wardrobes and a dressing table in there and I’m now struggling to find space to put my equipment #FirstWorldProblems.

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This time around I haven’t set myself any goals in the way of ‘I want to lose 10lbs in 2 months’ kinda thing, I’m just exercising eating ‘syn free’ meals all whilst allowing myself a takeaway and that jar of Nutella when I’m in dire need of some hazelnut/chocolate goodness. I’m not going to lie and say that I wouldn’t like to drop a couple of dress sizes and be nice and toned by the time I get married, but as that will probably not happen for a couple of years I have plenty time drop the lbs and I’m not putting any added pressure on myself (because why would you want to do that to yourself, right?!).

Anyway I’m going to give my new exercise ball a go, cheerio! πŸ’ͺ

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Grab A Cuppa.

Well hello there and thanks a lot for stopping by. Grab a cuppa and have a wee read on what has been happening in my life, spoiler alert, I lost my job and this post is mainly about that!

It’s been a good few months since I have blogged, actually more like a year(!) and this is all because I fell out of love for/with blogging, I stopped reading them and stopped typing them up. Now that I’m not working I can focus on typing up more posts of which I was planning to do last year…

So yeah, I’m unemployed. I stopped working for the woman in the black cloak in August 2016 and started working for a stockbrokers, I was so happy about my new journey (more money, not a call centre etc…) and I was determined to make this my new career and I had big plans of upskilling and even looking to move around the company, sadly come the beginning of March this year these ‘grand plans’ were shattered.

We had a company meeting at 11am on March 2nd to be informed that our jobs were at risk of redundancy, which basically meant that we were out of a job. I’ve never been made redundant before I was in complete shock, in fact the whole floor was in a state of shock, anger and upset, we all walked out once we had received the news and headed to the bar to drown our sorrows and process the information, after a couple of hours we headed back to the office we had our 1-2-1 meeting with our managers who provided us with a bit more information on the situation. A week or so after the announcement we were informed that only a handful of people were keeping their jobs and the rest of us would be out by April 28th, within that time I have applied for jobs and had a couple of interviews, both of which I didn’t get (obvs). I’m now about to begin my 3rd month of unemployment and it’s driving me insane, there are only so many Jeremy Kyle shows you can watch and so many times you can clean the house within a week… I’m currently signing on which means ‘some’ money is coming, but not enough to pay the mortgage. It’s horrible being in this position and I wish this on no one, making cutbacks and putting any plans for a holiday on hold, in fact we are putting our wedding plans on hold and it may be another year or so before we can even think about booking it. But I am hopeful something will come along soon and this ‘bump in the road’ can end, I could just take a job in a shop or do Festival work but neither of these are jobs are where I intend to take my career and I would very much like to get back into the financial sector (but let’s be honest I’ll have to take any job if I don’t secure something in the next couple of weeks).

I haven’t been utilising my ‘time off’ as much I should have been, I have obviously been applying for jobs and I’ve gone on a few walks, but I mainly spend my time in the house cleaning, doing wash loads, exercising and watching box sets. I could of/should be volunteering to at least get me out of the out house and feel like I have purpose, I am not cut out for the life of a housewife, I get bored. It really does knock for six when you are in a job (which you enjoy) and it be taken away from you, you go through a grieving process and it took me weeks if not a month or so to get my head around it. I am also shocked by the only 2 benefits which I can receive which are JSA and a reduction on council tax, I don’t find that to be very fair considering I have been paying my NI and taxes for years, yet because I own my home and live with a partner who works ‘they’ assume that we can afford all our outgoings. However if I was single and living on my own I would be given every kind of benefit and I can assure you that Β£147 a fortnight does nothing but help pay for my personal bills, of which I have many…

Anyway, enough of me ranting, I’ve a house to clean… But if anyone knows of a job vacancy in the Edinburgh area, which is not a job in a call centre, please let me know!

 

Round Up.

It’s been a while since I’ve bothered to write a post, don’t get me wrong I’ve thought about it (a lot) and had ideas for posts but I’ve been ‘busy’ watching telly and being generally a lazy bitch.

As I type this I’m in the bath with a face mask on looking all kinds of alien like, listening to The XX and to get me back into the swing of things I thought I would do a wee ‘Round Up’ post.

So what’s been happening I hear you ask… I went on holiday with my friends to Croatia, changed jobs and companies at the end of August, got engaged in September and I also turned 30. THAT IS IT. To be honest 2016 was a good year for me, the new job and getting engaged were the two biggest things that happened. Leaving a call centre and taking on a more administrative roll has been an absolute fucking delight! Anyone who has worked in a call centre will know how utterly sole destroying it is, the people are great and I miss all my old work pals, but I cannot be happier to have left!

Onto the ENGAGEMENT, I will be, at some point in the near future ‘Mrs Wilson’ (or ‘Marshall-Wilson’ as I would like to be known). Me and J are in our now 10th year (!), that’s a bloody long time to be with someone so it was inevitable that it was going to happen (and I had an idea that it would be before my 30th). The proposal was nothing fancy or cheesy it was done after dinner in our house (*to be honest he could have asked me in the car driving to the shops and I would have said yes). Thankfully I am OBSESSED with my ring and it fitted so there was no need to resize it, although for the first couple of weeks my ring finger would swell up (I think it was trying to reject it!).

We’ve had the obligatory engagement party which coincided with a Halloween party held by and for my family and now we in the very early stages of planning so hopefully in the next couple of years we will have tied the knot.

I’m hoping that 2017 will be another good year for us and we make changes to the house and organise our wedding, but no doubt there will be some bumps in the road (which will be tackled head on), but I hope whoever and where ever you are that you enjoy what the new year brings you. For now I’m going to top up my bath with hot water as it has gotten cold and contemplate getting out in the next half hour before I turn into a prune.

Hopefully (and I say this every time!) I will be and bit more consistent with this blogging malarkey! But for now, bye Felicia! πŸ‘‹

Drink Tea & De-Stress.

Over the past few months I have been feeling overwhelmed at work and in my personal life that has resulted in me being signed off work with stress. During my time off I’ve been trying to clear my head and get back into my routine of meditation and exercise.

I’ll be honest and say that it hasn’t gone to plan, I’m still lacking motivation and continue to overthink EVERY LITTLE THING. I’m annoyed at myself that I have carried this stress for so long that it has resulted in me being signed off work, thankfully I have a fantastic group of family and friends around me who I can talk to and off load all my stress and worries. Although, sometimes it feels like I feel that if I talk to people I will just burden them with my issues and that’s the last thing I want to do to anyone…

As mentioned, I’ve found that meditation and exercise helps me and I’ve been using a few apps on my phone; Meditation – Calm & Headspace, Exercise – Freeletics & Track Yoga, I’ve also joined the gym again and have rediscovered the water baby in me. But recently, since I’ve been off all I have done is clean the house and I’ve done very little in the way of meditation or exercise. This is due to me feeling down, having no motivation and because of this doing absolutely nothing, to be honest I’m most likely suffering with a bit of depression. I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety when I was 16, but managed to get myself back on track and it never seemed to crop up (or I managed it so well that I never let it faze me, until now).

I think this has come around as I have just kept pushing things to the back of my mind and tried to get on with life as I didn’t want to appear weak to see as struggling to cope with things. With one thing and another slowly bubbling at the surface and then hearing that my uncle was put in a medically induced coma just seemed to tip me over the edge. That’s when I realised that I do need to take time out and try and sort myself out and that I couldn’t continue to go into work and pretend to be constantly happy. The docs signed me off for two weeks and this is my final week, with me returning to work on Friday. I am dreading it, I have been, as always, overthinking things and worry about what will happen when I go back to work (which I have been assured that there is nothing to worry about and that my managers and team are there to help and support me, however ‘If I feel that the job is not for me… blah blah blah’). It’s not only work however, there are some things that I need to address at home and I want to try and get things sorted as quickly as possible so that I can move forward (however, at present nothing has been done…).

When you tell people that you’re depressed, stressed or anxious, people who have never really come across this will always says things like, ‘There are worse things happening in the world’, ‘Chin up’, You’re OK’, ‘There’s nothing wrong with you’ or the best one is ‘I feel the same, but I just get on with it’… So was I for a time, but it all got too much for me. The comments above are typical things I’ve heard from folks who assume that an illness is something you see and that really annoys me. Just because you can’t see something, doesn’t mean that it’s not there.

Also, for anyone who has ever felt like l am right now, don’t feel embarrassed to talk to someone, don’t feel that you shouldn’t take some time out to sort yourself out. I’ve seen what stress and depression can do to people if they don’t work on it and it’s not good. Take some advice from someone who is good at giving advice, but terrible at taking it – Speak to your GP, figure out what is cause and work on it, by either getting rid of or fixing the root cause.

I think typing this has been a little cathartic and once I’ve had some lunch I will try and bring myself to do some meditation and either exercise in the house or head to the gym with J later on this afternoon…

I’ll get there, I was just hoping that I would be back to ‘normal’ by now!

December 1st.

Is finally upon us, which means it’s only 24 days until CHRISTMAS!
I’m super excited, I have just eaten my very first chocolate from the advent calendar and am about to start my Christmas card list! We’re going to have another year with just the two of us (well, 5 if you count the cats. Which of course, we do…), we’ll spend it eating, drinking, watching old Christmas films and playing boardgames.
We’ll do our obligatory family visits on Christmas Eve and Boxing Day, which will allow us to spend the day lounging about in our jammies!

There’s still so much to do between now and then, decorating the house, writing out cards, going on a food & booze run and of course buying presents!
This year me and J are cutting back on what we spend on each other, we’ve had a busy and expensive year, so it makes sense just get each other something small (and within budget!). To be honest, the main focus for us is FOOD, we both LOVE a Christmas dinner (who doesn’t?!) and this year we will be going all out with all the meat, veg and pigs and blankets that you can eat! I better do a Joey from Friends and invest (or borrow) a pair of maternity leggings so that I am at my most comfortable when stuffing my face!

I’m hoping to try and persuade J to pop the Christmas tree up in the next few days. I need to invest in some more decorating also, however I have some fantastic crocheted Christmas lights coming my way, handmade by my friend Heather! I cannot wait for the house to feel Christmasy, I might even pop a playlist on the Sonos…

Anyway, I hope everyone is getting into the spirit of things and takes full advantage of all the Christmas themed fun wherever you are and if you’re not a fan, that’s cool, but we can’t be friends. 😜

Round Up.

Hey you guys! It’s been a while… I seem to have been bitten by the blogging bug and thought that would start off with a little round up post.
In the past few months there have been some ups and some downs, but thankfully everything is good at the moment!

The biggest thing that has happened is that we lost our little Mossy Moo, our youngest cat was tragically hit by a car and died on the 8th of May. It has been a horrible time, it hit us really bad and our oldest cat Senna stopped eating and was trying to find Moss (that was heartbreaking to watch). Sen has thankfully gotten better and both myself and Jaimie have gotten through the worst of it, but still think about him and miss him everyday.
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On a lighter note, I’m currently being up skilled at work and will be duel skilled by July! There has and is still a lot to take in, but it’s been nice to be off the phones!

There’s a lot of stuff coming up, such as a gig, stag do, hen do and 3 more weddings and I’m trying to get back on the healthy wagon (although I doubt the tub of Ben & Jerry’s that was consumed over 2 days will help!).

Finally, it feels like summer! With the better weather it means that more time will be spent outside and I intend to start walking home from work (let’s see how long that lasts!).

(I’m going to keep this up, I’m going to kee….).

Round Up.

Well hello there! It’s been a rather long time since I last posted anything on here and thought it was long overdue!

I’ve been very busy of late, mainly with work and gaining an active social life again!
In the past few months *we’ve managed to dine out (*we’ve includes J and my chums), my faves so far have been Five Guys & Rhubarb at Prestonfield House. A gift which was actually for my M&D, however they were both ill so me and J had to step in…
We’ve also enjoyed lunch at Clerk’s Bar and afternoon tea at Mimi’s.
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Now that I have my weekends free I am able to go out and enjoy myself, which in my previous job I hardly ever did! I’ve been on a few nights out with the work chums and I’ve been able to see more of my besties which has been wonderful! I’ve also been able to make more time for the family.
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I don’t have any exciting news to report as of yet, mainly because we’re only into the 2nd month of the year and so much is still to happen… Weddings upon weddings, stag do, hen do’s, decorating the house and hopefully managing a holiday (somewhere hot & sunny) with the Mr. But with all my money being spent on weddings I’m not sure if it will be feasible, we shall see!

I hoping not to neglect the blog as much as I have been and by typing up this short, yet boring post it might give me some inspo to continue.

I better get out of this bath now before I turn into a prune… (!).